Tuesday, May 25, 2010

unfolding

2 Corinthians 4 talks about experiencing trial and torture and general hardships in our lives while keeping a Godly attitude. I will be the first to admit that a lot of times, my initial response isn't always Godly; it's usually far from. We looked at this chapter in Bible study last week, and I loved how convicting it was, but in such an encouraging way, I felt so beloved by the Lord in the midst of His correction.

Verses 16-18 really resonated with me. "So we're not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever."

Did you catch that? Not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. That means that every single day, God's grace is new, and there's more that He reveals to us with each new morning. Every day is another petal that unfurls the brilliance of the full flower open in its radiant beauty. How blessed are those who catch the sight of the face of the flower!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

sigh

Sometimes I feel like nothing is going my way. You know? But the only thing I can claim hold of, the one thing in this world that I know belongs to me and can never be taken away by anyone is my salvation. Because it was never mine to take in the first place. It's almost like any claim on my salvation is invalid because my claim on salvation was never valid to begin with.

When I feel like I can't keep anything together, when I feel like I can't do anything right and I fail at all my relationships, when I feel like I have no one I can trust, the only thing that is solid rock beneath my feet is the love of Christ. And it is upon His grace and His mercy that I can even find my footing. The only place I can stand, the only place that is truly safe and secure. The only place I can truly call my own.

And it is here that I can boast in my weaknesses, because I know I am being made strong through my weaknesses solely because of the power of the living God which resides in me through the Holy Spirit. And if anything about me can serve to bring glory to God, the only one worthy of any praise, then I will boast all the more in Him.

Friday, May 7, 2010

realize

I've been realizing that I really don't like it when people perceive me as unGodly. I don't mind being wrong but I really mind if people think that I am not representing Christ well, when they should really know me and my heart and what I stand for. I feel almost hurt by their lack of faith in me, and I then begin to distrust them. This erects a barrier on my part, and then these people are further removed from my life and judge all my actions as unGodly, and it becomes self-perpetuating.

I just hate that I can't figure out how to break the cycle.