Thursday, January 26, 2012

realization

My good friend from back home was randomly in town last night, and it was awesome to catch up with him. Except I felt oddly stumped when trying to recount any major life experiences from the past month or two.

I realized that I have so many responsibilities and obligations, I don't have time to really live. Everything I do is either because I have to or scheduled around what I have to do or where I have to be at.

I don't want my life to be like this! Feel like I'm drowning...

From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. -Psalm 61:2

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

admission

I must admit that lately, I have just been feeling so...unsatisfied.

I work all day and then I do homework. Or I go to class all day and work during my breaks.

I'm tired of feeling perpetually broke when I look at my accounts. I want to reach my goals faster. I want to have time to enjoy the money I make with people I love.

For the most part, I am perfectly content to do the "responsible" and "mature" thing. But sometimes I just want to be normal, and I want to be okay with doing the irresponsible thing sometimes.

Too bad I was never very good at being an irresponsible youth.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

older

If there is one thing I can say about the aging process, it's that it's incredibly humbling. Starting to realize that the world is very big and I am very small. Jesus, direct my steps and pour out Your favor on me.